When I'm not at work, I'm sewing. When I'm not at work or sewing, I'm passed out in bed. So needless to say I've been MIA on the blog. Our adoption benefit is this Saturday!! It has taken up most of my time, but it'll be a good thing...I hope. In a way I'm terrified about it. Scared no one will show up, and if they do show up, will look at everything and say, "I can make that myself! Why would I buy it?" When we first decided to begin the adoption process, we were ready as far as the fees were concerned...or so we thought! Then we were told about the money for the birth mom (money for things she needs such as rent, utilities, maternity clothes, etc). We didn't want to stop the process, but we also wanted to make sure we had all the money we needed before moving forward. We'd heard about people doing fundraisers and we were kind of against it; not because we don't think it's a good idea but because we don't like asking for help. That's when I got a very distinct prompting to "let them help you". So we're letting people help us and we have been BLOWN AWAY by the support. I've had donations from some women I've never even met that wanted to help. How amazing is that?
Meanwhile, we're getting out paperwork together. Can I just say it's SO frustrating trying to prove that we'll do an okay job being parents when you see people beating their kids, etc? The most difficult part of this process is not getting bitter. I worked SO hard not to get bitter about infertility and I can proudly say it passed and I'm okay now. Sure, it sometimes felt like a punch in the stomach when a pregnancy announcement came, but it passed and I was genuinely happy for my friends. But now there's a new aspect with the adoption process that I have to work through. There was a woman that came in to SportClips and was the biggest B*&$%^ and I thought, "why didn't she have to be approved to be a parent??" Then I had to shake my head and start singing a hymn in my head ... don't be bitter... don't be bitter...
And speaking of not being bitter, I'm supposed to be in Yellowstone NP for our yearly trip. I can't even think about it or I just about cry. Scott couldn't get the time off because of school. Grrrrr.
Don't be bitter.... don't be bitter....
Fun stuff, yes?!?
P.S. Pray for no rain on Oct. 8th!!!!!! At least till after 2pm...then I don't care.
